loneliness in me KILLS!!!!
would i eva get the chance to col u amma again??
m i even fit enough to utter the wrd??
you were jus too selfish ammajus to leave me all alone in tisworld to struggle.Have u spared a thoughtabt me at least?? Hw wld i eva be witout u??you forgot that the minute u left me,my soul departed wit u too.m nw jus like a dead body wit myheart jus beating...260907 has realli made a great impactto me ma.To see u laying dead infront of me jus shatters my heartinto million pieces,but u didn't understand mai feel invisible,like no onewld eva notice if i jus suddenlydisappeared.i wish u wld knw tati didn't knw time wld be realli tat shortto take u away frm me.u always knew tat no matterwad i can't live witout u,but u left me witout a wrdall those ppl ard me tld me that,"Don't wry,
your mother is always beside u no matter wad."but they didn't knw that all these were jus wrdsi can't feel ya presence or anything amma.i can't hear ya laughter,see ya smilelisten to ya nonsense toking,can't eat the foodu cooked,can't go out wit u,can't see ya eating n making noiselike a small kid..i simply cant ammayou were always like a small kid to memore like my best buddy,n not forgetting my twinthe pain in me,neither ani1 cld understand nor no 1 cld feeli jus wanna say that i reall love ya alot n miss ya tonnes mai realli regret why did i fight wit u n neva tok to ya for 2 wksbefore u jus left me allone all over againi jus didn't knw hw to show my love towards ya
n i jus wasted it
i wish i can go bk to the same old place
where i grew in ya womb.
the place where got no noise,no fights,no nothing
onli i cld feel ya warmness n ya heartbeat
the day i came out & saw ya i didn't knw tat wld me my last 16
yrs spending wit ya.
if i had knew i wldn't hav cum out of that beautiful place no1 can eva buy
or go bk again!!!!
i dun knw y i jus felt like telling smth to my mumn so i didbk to nw as i m tld time heals every1n everything happens for a reasontoday sch wen as per usual
but i dun knw y tears started to stream dun my cheeks
the minute i heard the sound of the ambulance
i got reminded of my past all over again
in class i was sad cos today was thaipusum
n all i was thinking the way my mum dresses up,n she wld be the
last person to leave the hse.
she n her bubbliness no 1 can eva beat it
lessons wen as per normal
felt asleep in mrs raj's class
ooppzzzz
but i was trying my level best not to drop or sway sial
cos it will be embrassing
lolx
half of the indian population of smss
didn't cum sch today
lolllxx
other then tat sch ended fast,came bk hme fast
m damn tiredlast time wen i cum bk hme aft sch,my mum's cooking cld be smelled untill outside my hseshe wld be there reading newspaper,watching tv,slpingbut nwaday aft sch wen i cum bk,no 1 is at hme expect johnnyi wld be very lonelysumtimes i wld cry cos of tis,cos i dun knw hw to express my feelingsi love u ammaur the best n u will be the best mum in the world' lost me=(
I gave you my promise
on Tuesday, January 22, 2008; 12:18 AM
