after soooooooooooooooooooooooooo long m blogging againnnnearly 1 mth later i guesshaizzz no time to blog abt my daily life but i do write it dwnhmm lets seethere are many things i haven blog abt&& seriously there are many things going through in my mind nwadaysbut i hav no idea who to tell to && who wld eva bother to listen to wad i hav to saymaybe sum things are made to be jus hidden inside mebut my heart gets heavier each day && min && secjus a small heart can't contain everythingbut my heart trying to contain it && trying its level best not to pour outi believe tat i hav changed a biti can see for myself but sum ppl think its rongi dun live for them so i dun carebut human beings do tok alot at times if u noticebeing happi does not mean m happi all the timessum times i do out up a fake smile to show others m happii dun knw y osoi cry oso rong,shout oso rong,get angry oso rong,sumtimes i laugh oso rongif everything i do is rong means,ten i do wad??live a death life???i hav no idea wad i m doingbut i do hav idea wad i wann do in lifei hav planned sum things in life the way i wan things to bei hope it wld go && i wish i wld reach my dreams 1 dayin my life sum ppl hav drift awaythe ppl whom i wan tem to stay r movingthose ppl whom i didn't actualli care are staying wit me in times of needis tis called life or fate??who to be wit && who not to be wit??i dun knw!!!!!but i knw there is 2 ppl who is always there for me no matter wad1 is the hero of my life called my daddy && another is an angel of my life is called my sistertis 2 special ppl are god's gift to memy mum is now wit god so i dun realli need to thank her everyday cos i knw she is wit himso i thank god is like thanking my mumwit tis 2 ppl i can lead my lifenot forgetting my dearest imsai of my life my brotherhe is my eye opener for mei realli love tis 3 ppl but i hav neva showed or tell them hw much i love them or hw much they mean to mei m scared to tell cos of the age gap && the understanding between usm sure they wld understand my love even though i hav neva tld themi wld not say tis is a broken family but its a family which ppl are leading their own lifes but living together under 1 rooftis is called my family && onli mineno space for ani1 to enter or even break itsumtimes i wish jus to go bk to my mumcos she is the best lady i hav eva shared things witbut nw she is no more i knw she is listening to me from a far away place where she can hear me but i can't hear or see heri dun understand y god has to take her soo fast frm my life???she promised me many many things in tis worldbut nw all those things jus vanish to the thin airjus witin a snap whoshhhshe is goneaway frm the world,family,me many many thingsnothing in tis world is permanent1 day every1 has to gobut i wish wen i go there i wld get to be wit her once againmy life,my world is u my mumi may hav neva tld i love u to yabut nw as i wanna tell u not hear to listenbut i jus wanna tell hw much i love u && mishh u in tis worlda place without u is like a place of hell,shattered place wit all broken glasses i hav to step ontoeach day,hr,min,seclast phrase of the day::: I LOVE U MUM &&
I LOVE U DAD
I LOVE U SISTER
I LOVE U BROTHERtogether we live as 1
I gave you my promise
on Wednesday, March 19, 2008; 12:48 PM
