last week friday
had ENGLISH && SOCIAL STUDIES exams
both the papers wen well for me
i cld ans all the qns
but was short for time

sad news was my BF JOHNNY didn't return home
he wen missing
i hate tis u knw
ppl those who r close to me leave me
dun knw why oso

sat was okae la
wen to northpt wit sis
&& met bro there
wen for can say early dinner
had soo muchh of fun
wen to see lil princess hiroshini aft tat
her face can brighten up ani's day man
she is an angel cum lil princess

sunday was supposed to go cwp
but it got cancelled
supposed to go watch movie
it got cancelled
was sooo irritated
wen to see hiroshini wit sis
ten wen pasam malam wit sis,hiroshini,anni,aunty
i dun knw hw times i go there alr
hahaha but still not bored over it

monday had TAMIL exam
i tell u the paper sucked
i didn't knw wad to write
&& u knw hw my mistakes all
haizz
but the paper 2 was okae
i checked & checked & checked

Labels: gone mad

I gave you my promise

on Monday, April 28, 2008; 11:36 AM

today the day was fun &&& soooo tiring
&& recently the weather like sooo humid
m sooo SAD cos i can't listen to songs currently to sch animore
cos my fone sumthing rong
cos tooo much of songs && i dun wish to spoil my fone further more la
&& its my N level gift so m NOT gonna spoil it more
but for the past few days i wen to sch witout music oso i enjoy my journey to && fro
i admire the nature,ppl singing,talking,fighting,laughter
its all nice to watch && time fly fast

sch was fun
had S.S in the morning
he wen through the skills for the cuming MYEs
i find it useful && i can understand beta nw on hw to ans qns
hope i can rmb them on FRIDAY ((:

recess as usual the same EARLY but okay la

maths mrs low was on course today
yahoooooooooo
aniway it was onli for 1/2hr soo NO BIG DEAL

P.E was next i was changing for it
i was sooo scared cos i thought i was gonna fail my NAPFA
but to my surprise i improved on it
Sit-ups:: 42
Inclined pull ups::22
Sit & Reach:: 39
Shuttle run:: 12.2
Standing Broad Jump :: DUN ASKKKK I FAILEDD

but m not gonna give up
m gonna train && pass it all

nw my body && legs hurts

CHEM it was REVISION time ((:
was taking dwn notes for the ORGANIC CHEM
i find the chap quite hard but its understandable
i hope to knw it well before my Os at least

mathevi was writing dwn like poems abt me,rani,carbon,nitrous
tmr i wld upload them alrites
its DAMN funny
my panni kutti friend
i lau herr =P

english i started switching off
cos i was sooo tired && it was soooo humid
&& my water bottle had no no water oso
DAMN IT
i was trying my level best to open my eyes && ears to listen to her
finally the lesson was OVER

had to go to the lab for phy practical
those who didn't bring their long rulers && calculators were not supposed to enter into the lab
LUCKY ME
i brought both 2 to sch
actualli i bring them to sch everyday
mr ng so checking those wen the enter the lab
wen i entered he checked whether do i hav no not
&& he gave me the practical wrksheet

he asked to read 1st while waiting for the others to cum
the practical for today was quite hard but i cld do finish on time
my graph was SOOO STR
hahah

sch finished
yahooooo
i wen bk to class packed my stuff && PUSHED IN my chair
&& left for hme

dad called me && said to meet at khatib
i said alrite
&& i met him there
top up my ez-link
&& was toking to my dad
while walking

we saw tis whole bunch of indian ite fellows
soo like gonna fight like tat
suddenly my dad was toking to me abt it
he realli had a BAD IMPRESSION on those ppl
even i myself had BAD IMPRESSIONS on them
&& sad to say 1 of them was my childhood kindergarden frend

then walked to NTUC
bought chocolates both for my daddy && myself
actualli he asked me whether i wanted my lunch && i said i was not hungry

but nww m hungry soo gonna find sumthing to eat
aft tat gonna study soonn
m getting scared as days cum by closer
arghhhh
but wadeva it is M NOT GONNA GIVE UP

::||daddy's lil princess||::

Labels: sumtimes i wonder why n hw??

I gave you my promise

on Wednesday, April 23, 2008; 5:29 PM

everthing wen well today
m getting scared as days gets closer to Os
hav to cross over the MYE && PREMS && finally Os
had principal's tok today
i thought its gonna be for 1 hr
but in the end it was onli for 30-40mins
lolx
aft tat was meet the parent's section
as my dad neva cum so i need not attend it

i dun knw y
those ppl whom i tok to today asked where is my mum && whether she was cuming
i knw tat they accidently asked me
but i felt i was missing sumthing

aniway as time pass by i will get over it
i hope (:

my tamil class was at 10am so me,adela,shab,bhavani,rani,fazi
wen to the canteen && we were toking
hahah funny bunch of ppl i knw
&& we jus realised tat all of us r phy students
COOL rite?? =P

ten it was 10am
actualli 10+ so we made our way to the tamil class
but all the ways to the class was locked
so had no choice but to take the LIFT ((:

tamil was sooo DAMN FUN
even though it was a small grp
i think we learnt alot

the class was untill 1:15pm
supposed to go bk hme but me && bunny were realli hungry
so me,shab,bunny made our way to MAC
its realli fun to go out wit shab
cos u can laugh all the way

ard 2:15 we left && me,bhavani walked to the bus stop
shab had to go to the opp bus stop
both me && bunny missed our buses
had to wait for the next bus

then bunni left && i was waiting for my bus
finalli 855 came
it was crowded
&& there i started to get irritated && angry
there was tis grp of young guys on the bus
wen i boarded the bus
tis paticular guy jus stared at me as though i owe him $1000 bugs like tat
bledy hell la
i jus looked at me && turned away
but he was practically jus lookeing me
&& his friend woke up
both of the started looking at me

wen the bus came to khatib there was tis lady who boarded the bus
she was standing at the door tis guys jus asked her to move bk
&& they jus continued looking at me
like hell la
sooo damn irritated wit tis typical lifeless asses
unfortunately they got dwn at the same stop as me
THE INTERCHANGE
wen i got dwn he was rite beside me
&& was checking me out
looking where i was walking to
i was not bothered
i realli hav a bledy bad impression him
he jus created for himself
no matter hw gd he is i dun give a hell

took another bus && headed hme
&& nw they putting my favo movie
MUTHU
it brings bk many many old memories to me
i love the movie
so m gonna continue watching the MOVIE

Labels: life has brought me nth but saddness

I gave you my promise

on Saturday, April 19, 2008; 4:44 PM

Labels: life has to move on

I gave you my promise

on Tuesday, April 15, 2008; 7:16 PM

i seriously dun understand wad is going ard me
aft my mum is gone
alot of ppl looking dwn on me
y is tat so???
i hate it sial
i dun blame ani1 in particular
i can't tell out my feelings
so m jus typing it out
maybe by tat i feel my burden wld go dwn

sumtimes in life certain things happen
but we can't take those things to heart && lose hope in our life
i believe on those wrds indeed
my dad tld me,"You dun live to please every1 in tis world,if u gonna plsh every1 in tis world ten u can't find ya happiness but onli ya sorrows wld go up"

nw as i m alone at hme m jus thinking at those wrds he tld me
my dad is truly amazing
wit 1 look on my face he cld tell wads rong
wen i came bk hme today
he asked me,"Wad happened in sch??"
i was like hw did he knw man
i wanted to cry out to him
but i didn't cos he is already burdened wit stuffs
i dun wanna hurt him more

m seriously very very tired
both physically && mentally
i dun knw wen i m gonna cum out frm it
but i do hav hope
&& i believe tat it takes time to heal a person
&& m waiting for tat particular time to cum

life hurts alot
even though m jus 17
i toking as though my whole life is gone like tat
but within few yrs i realli wen through alot
i may seen happy on the outer
but inner the pain is still there
neither can it be explained nor felt
haizz

okae enough of my life story
&& not forgetting life still goes on
live the life to the fullest
m trying to follow tat
i jus wish my mum was here
to see wad is happening
i knw she can see wad is happening nw but i hope she does response to me in sum way
wen it rained jus nw a heavy down pour
i felt my mum was telling me sumting
but i cld not understand

wen eva is rains i believe tat either GOD is trying to say sumthing or if not my MUM

Labels: P.S IMY n ILY mum

I gave you my promise

on Thursday, April 10, 2008; 6:11 PM

there is tis malay guy who takes the same bus at me
OMG!!! he is cute man
hahaha i hope he dun read tis sial
my stop cums before his
so sad i had to depart u knw
lolxx =P
aniway today surprising most of my classmates came early to sch
i dun knw y oso
but its gd

all lessons wen well esp
geog cos my cher gave us chocolates for finishing the syllabus
lolx
the chocoz were YUMMY
&& tamil was FUN too cos we were slacking instead of studying
we were asked to do sum sch wrk to help mrs subra la
but at the end of the lesson she gave us hmewrk
mus finish by the next lesson

maths SUPER slacking
mrs low was waiting for others to hand in their wrk
while those who hand in aready got nth to do
i was SLACKING ((:
everything wen well

Labels: gaga-gugu

I gave you my promise

on Tuesday, April 8, 2008; 7:44 PM

todayy i woke up late
i was woken up at 5:15am
where else i was supposed to be bathing at tat time
but i rushed to the toilet to hav my shower
even though i took my time
i still was on time
not late jus nice && guess wad i was early at the bus stop
so as usual waited for the freaking slow bus to cum
finalli it came at 5:40am

reached sch another thing sial
wen my classmate wen to get the key it seems 1 cher was having it
dun knw y oso!!! cos she is not teaching my class && its been yrs since she taught me
tat was random u knw
finalli my door was open thanks to the aunty

slacking && listening to songs till jojo came
both as usual started toking && made our way to our usual spot
the CANTEEN ((:
we can foreva not stop toking
cos we r like tat
sum hw got alot alot of stories to tell sial

assembly was in the hall
as mine is a saints sch
devotion is a MUST
so while the devotion was going on i jus shut my hears
&& started dreaming

aft devotion was the singspriation
always i wanna slp during those time sial
infact my whole class was nearly flat
hahaha =X

1st lesson was S.S
i thought he wld cum && give bk our test papers but in the end
he asked us to do the source base qns in our grp
wen we wen to show him,got scolding cos we did it wrongly
as i wanted to say my pt
he siad no BUTS
so i shut my mouth
aft was RECESS
didn't eat as it was tooo early in the morning

i hated the class next
ART )):
cos m jus sooo stuck in my wrk
&& she dun wanna help me
she jus shut her ears to make it worse
she closed her ears wen i wen to ask her sumthing last wk
so since ten i neva bother toking to her

GEOG is best cos i neva do my hme wrk
so me && mathevi were planning to wad to say
but our luck she neva ask the bk today
but later mus do
the cher was going through wad was gonna cum for the test
i was jus listening while drawing

nwadays i dun knw y but m STARTING TO LOVE TAMIL ((:
its fun actualli
if i do her wrk tat she gives,she won't scold me la
so jus do the wrk la
today lesson was fun
supposed to be pair wrk
but i ended up doing alone cos i dun hav a partner
but its okae it was fun doing it
had to do compo && hand in tmr
jus finished it btw

eng was a bit boring && slacking
but i wld rate it as okay la
ten came LUNCH ((:
ate quick lunch wen to my pondatti's class
tok to her till time was up
for the test

i seriously dun hav the idea wad i was writing
but i jus wrote wad eva i knw
but i get at least sum mrks
i wrote nearly 2 pgs long
&& mathevi got shocked cos at 1st i was stuck in the qns
ten i read for sum time && day dreamed
finalli got the ans sum hw frm my brain

without me realising SCH WAS OVER for the day
helped bhavani do her fileing walked to the bus stop
took bus && wen hme
no 1 at hme expect my BF johnny
spend time wit him && i love him more then my life

tired is wad i can name today
=P

' dances ard teddy

Labels: boo m boredd

I gave you my promise

on Monday, April 7, 2008; 9:18 PM

cld not slp properly last nite
i dun knw y
jus kinda lost feeling
i dun knw wad is happening ard me oso
tired slping but tossed && turned ard on my bed

got waked up at 5:50am today to get ready for sch
kinda tired cos nt enuff of slp
got ready for sch ten my daddy send me to the bus stop
while walking he asked,"y u always fight && argue wit ya sis??"
me::" she dun wanna lend me the thing "
dad:" both of u all,i dun knw wad to say"
was irritated cos i felt he was supporting her but nt me
arghhh but nahh i tried to cool dwn

finalli got the song
ahhhhh i love itt
=X
i thought i was late to sch
but ended up being the earliest in the sch
even my teacher came late
lesson supposed to start at 8am
but all came onli 8+
lolx as usual
kirthi got to wait!!!

but today's lesson was funn
it was held in the IT conference rm
wit 4E && 5N galz

it ended at ard 12pm+
all were sooo tired,walked to the 2nd bus stop
waited for the bus,took it && headed bk hme ((:

as i was in the bus felt like crying
actualli i my eyes were filled wit tears
but i controlled
was listening to sum song tat reminded me of mummi

actualli i do mishh her alot
haizz
i wanna tell her 1001 things but i can't
i wanna hear her tok but i can't
i wanna feel her warmness but i can't
i jus can't feel aniting of her
y mus tat be soo???
ill-fated life suckzzz

nw as i m blogging jus feel sooo i dun knw wad oso
mixed emotions
but onli 1 thing is for sure
i m lost in my own world called lonliness

i may seem happy outside
jus for those ppl i see daily hav to put up a fake smile
&& move on wit life
tats hw life is
even though it may be 6mths since she left
i feel it as though it happened ytd

the feeling kills me deep inside
like slaughtering me
arghhhhh
my anger gets over me jus like tat

aniway i dun knw wad m gonna do next
but i hav to do sumthing
to keep me company

' lost lil gal

Labels: missing sumthing

I gave you my promise

on Saturday, April 5, 2008; 5:53 PM

today sch was actualli quite BORING!!! && FUN
boring cos matz neva cum the joker of the group )):
had S.S in the 1st period
he called me the lawyer witout her facts
cos i kept arguing wit him
but he said he was happy in me arguing
lolx
later was recess =P
aft eating while going bk to class my form tutor aka my S.S teacher came
he looked at me && called me
T:Cum here
*i went*
T:Wad mus u do wen u see a teacher??
*i looked ard*
T:Ahh see she arguing again && *gave the smile*
Me:ohhh "Gd morning mr.anthony"
T:ahhh gd
*walked bk to class complaining*
he likes to disturb our class
but he is the best
even though he may be strict i do still love him cos the way he care && tok
is damn funny && sentimental u knw
today had P.E thought i cld get over && done wit my 2.4
but in the end at my 3rd round my muscles pulled me && i cld not run ani longer
i wen through hell cos it was EFFING pain )):
&& the cher press && pull my leg but i started crying cos of the pain i cld not
take it ani longer
sad to say i walked bk limping
aft P.E was CHEM!!!
as usual my class was slacking ten there came mrs pillai
she was like asking us to cum to the lab for practical
we were aready half dead but we had to climb 3 LEVELS UP to the chem lab
i suffered walking cos of the pain but manged to reach the lab wit the help of my friends ((:
eng mrs raj neva cum so SLACK && toking stories sial wit bhavani && jojo
we were worried sick for PHY cos we neva do ani of the 4 wrkshts given
cos if we neva do my cher wld punish us by asking us to do squats depending on his mood
but to our surprise he didn't ask abt the wrkshts today but tld us to bring them tmr haizz
&& not forgetting the file n wrkbk
sch was supposed to end at 2pm but sum of the students had STEPS
&& m oso 1 of the students
the class was at 3:20pm-4:05pm so stupid rite??
jus 45mins class???
crazy ppl la
tat cher 1 loosu i tell u ahh
sooo irritating.she wanted to see our writing so she gave us tis stupid topic on DRESSING
1 pharagraph abt it
so i jus wrote like journal hope she dun scream
she dragged the class until nearly 4:30 la
ppl living sooo far frm sch she doing tis to me
ten rushed bk hme limping
waited for the bus called my daddy && complained tat i was late && stuff

Labels: complain lil princess ((:

I gave you my promise

on Wednesday, April 2, 2008; 8:39 PM