m still a gal in the end & i do hav a heart

i dun knw wad's rong but jus feeling sumthing is rong sum where
my heart feels realli tooo heavy && i dun knw y
is it cos m sad??
or want to cry??
or can't take the pain??
i myself dun knw

my heart && mind is not saying the same things
sld i follow my mind or my heart??
of course my heart but sumtimes my heart oso learnt to tell lies to me

i feel like crying out
but there is no 1 there for me to lend me their shoulders
i feel like hugging sum1 but i cld onli see their backs cos they all moved away frm me

m not being emo
but jus telling out hw m i feeling
y dun't ani1 understand me??
put theirself 1 min in my shoes && feel it
then tell me hw they felt.

days of happiness hav gone frm my life
but many said i can't && must not remain like tat if not its too hard
but i jus can't make myself cum out of it
it hurts deep dwn my heart

my tears are abt to roll dwn my cheeks but m holding on to them
nowadays i seem to be a mad gal
toking to myself while walking dwn the road
i do tok to my mum oso,cos i knw she is there wit me && watching very single thing
so i tok to her but onli i can feel her presense but can't see her
thus i look like a mental

m i suffering frm aniting??
i dun knw
but i lack of sumthin

many says different things but to me,i dun knw
i seem to dun knw aniting
cos i look soo blur tat i dun knw wad is happening

things aren't supposed to be forgotten
but hav to be forced to forget them
as i m tying this my heart gets heavier each time,sec,min

i still hav to live
to show many ppl tat i can make it in life
they r not living my life so they dun knw me

plsh dun judge the person on the outer looks
but look deep inside them u wld see the real them
a small living thing looking for help but seems to be lost

i wld not say tat i did not hav a wonderful childhood
i did,&& i had the most wonderful childhood tat ani1 cld hav
was realli the princess of my parents
got all the stuffs i wanted

but as yrs passed by
ppl tend to change even me i changed
i did not understand their love
sum said i stole their love
took away their happiness
but they forgot it wld hurt me && it does hurt me

let me tell u,i did not ask god to make me born on tis earth
neither did i was born to take away ur happiness
i was oso borned to tis earth for a simple reason for wad ur born for oso

m not blaming ani1 here
jus dun think or blame yaself
but m jus typing wad i m feeling tats it

now aft muchh thinking i hav decided to drop my art
i can't take it
but its for my own gd
i wld sum hw try my level best to pass it && make it through

jus leave me alone ppl
dun cum bk to me as though u cared
its jus fake,i knw tat
jus move away frm me
since u left me,u jus go
i dun wanna u bk

below there is sumthing i wrote on 07/05/08 abt MOTHER
hope its sumthing meaninful for those who are reading
so here it goes...

Mother's love is the best love in the whole universe.
Nothing can beat or withstand it
But once the mother's love departs,there is nothing else
that can replace it.
It can only be felt through love,care,concern,warmness
No matter how much a person try to replace it
he fails && he would continue to fail
Once the mother's love is gone,
No matter how hard you might try it will never come back
&& if it comes back it would not be the same
A person who has lost his mother's love is equal to a person
who is living but without his heart beating
In the end it proves that neither an human being nor an animal
can live without a mother's love...


jus sumthing tat was frm my bottom of my heart
maybe i wld say tat i wrote tat with my mum
in my mind

days passes by
&& each day brings new memories,
new ppl && everything new
it jus depends on hw u want to live tat each day
our life is at our hands
before its tooo late,to realise tat u hav not lived enough
jus live each day as u hav neva lived before
enjoy every sec of life
its worth living for

`|i| $horty

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